Hello!!

Just wanted to pop on here and say hi, i've been so busy and feeling a bit down again well alot down really...

I've decided i'm going to get some couselling and see how that goes as feel like i'm on an emotional rollercoaster and jon can't be my only support anymore, things are becoming very strained between us and i don't want this to be the end for us. Hope that this will help as i know whats wrong but i don't know how to get better if that makes any sense

Just wanted to say hope your all ok and sorry if i've missed anything big.

Will try and catch up soon x x

Hi Sarah,

Sending you a big hug.

I'm really sorry to hear you are still feeling low. I hope the counselling can help you.

xx

Morning Sarah,

I've pm'd you but wanted to send you a big cyber hug here too! take care xx xx

Hi Sarah

Sending you a big hug and i hope the counseling works, a couple of my friends have had counseling for depression, it was called Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and it really helped them xx

Hi Sarah

Sending you a massive hug, I really hope the counselling helps  x x

Thank you all, i've got an app for sept so not long to wait. Jon's really pleased too as he said he doesn't want to lose me but i'm making it difficult to be loved at the min. This might sound daft but its almost as if i'm pushing and pushing him to see if he will leave and then i can say "well i was right you don't love me as much as you said" Totally destructive and so not fair on him as he's a wonderful partner and a fantastic dad.

Theres lots i need to sort out and i kind of know what i've got to do so hope this counselling can help me, i sound like a nutter don't i...  think i just resent jon for some reason and its nothing to do with him, its me thats has to get my confidence back and me that has to feel better about myself. I've used jon as some sort of crutch and i can't anymore, need to do this myself. 

Sorry for the essay but it helps to get it out x x