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30/05/2017 at 17:25
I really need some advice here because I literally have no one in my life that can really understand how I am feeling. I'm really hoping someone out there has been in a similar position!
Basically, I am currently looking for and interviewing for jobs. I have had my fair share of jobs which I haven't enjoyed and now I really just want a job which I can look forward to going to everyday. I've been looking for a particular role for ages and finally one came up fairly close by. I had the interview today and they would like to see me for a second interview. They were so genuinely lovely and the company is really small but nice! However, we are currently TTC and even though I know the chances of it happening aren't crazy high, I still get this horrible niggling feeling that I am doing something wrong.
My conscious has always been an issue with me and now more than ever I just feel like an awful person going for interviews when I know that hopefully sometime soon I will be pregnant.
How do others deal with this? I have tried getting a job which I don't care about but I have ended up depressed and that really isn't the environment I want to bring a child into. I have decided I really want this job, however, I want a baby more than anything and I really don't want to take away the chance of falling pregnant. I have stopped 'trying' as it were, calmed down on tracking everything (which actually in fairness will do me a whole lot of good) but I know that I can't honestly say that we are not trying if that makes sense.
I'm sure so many of you can relate when I say I don't want to stop trying- our TTC journey has already felt longer than it is, the thought of prolonging it makes me feel sick- I'm not too old but I'm not getting any younger and we both really want more than 1 child..
Please help- any advice would be so much appreciated, or even to just know that I'm not alone in this.
13/07/2017 at 08:31
You arent alone. I got offered a job I dont want been trying to concieve baby no2 for just over a year. Im only taking the job to keep OH happy. I really really dont want it to the point where i could cry just thinking about my start date. I was also going to go back on the pill phoned the doctors got them and i cant bring myself to take it. I want another baby so much. And stopping trying is making me hate the idea of this job even more.
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