awww hun
my gorgeous great dane elmo had a tumour pressing on something in brain n he bit the vet

i couldnt bear to watch him get sicker so like you i put my feelings aside n did what was best for my best boy (this was about 11 weeks before ds1 was born)
i kept his collar n lead n it still hangs from hook with my other dogs leads
i know how horrible it is but comfort yourself with the knolledge you stopped all the pain for your dog and im sure wherever she is she is greatfull to you for that
all my love hun
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