Natasha - so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my son on Tuesday last week - he was born 28w + 2m but only lived for 2 days. I like you am worried at how I'll feel if I get pregnant again. I will always remember my little boy, but scared about how I'll feel and how I'll get through it all 2nd time round without it sending me (and my husband) crazy.
What I am scared about, is how I'll (if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant again) I will manage to keep the 12 weeks things quiet again - it was hard enough the first time round, but I really dont want to tell anyone at all 2nd time round just in case something happens again and I need to do all the explaining again - the explaning that I have yet to do when I go back to work when I'm ready.
Natasha, I'm also 4ft 11 (and a half!
) so know how you must have been feeling in part to carrying baby - I hope that you have all the luck in the world with this pregnancy, and I hope you get the care that you so deserve.
x