Hi I recently found out I was pregnant but I'm quite scared I have diabeties and in 2011 I had a stillborn at 41 weeks4 days. She weighed 13 pounds so quite a big baby I waited just over a year and now I'm pregnant I can't help but feel guilty for being happy about this I still miss my daughter I have her photo near my bed. I must admit I am quiet frightened this time round. I have a 6 year old son also.

13 pounds...wow! so sorry for your loss, i wish i had some words of wisdom for you but i am at a loss.

i lost my baby at 8 weeks which is nothing compared to what you must have been through, wish you a h & h baby this time round, dont beat yourself up xx

Thank you very much. Yeah she got very big I'm only small myself I'm 4 ft 11 so was hard carrying her but I never knew at that point how big she was. It wasn't until after I was told I had gestational diabeties the hospital neglecting me and my baby. Now I have diabeties for life where it got so bad and was untreated.

Natasha - so sorry to hear of your loss.  I lost my son on Tuesday last week - he was born 28w + 2m but only lived for 2 days.  I like you am worried at how I'll feel if I get pregnant again. I will always remember my little boy, but scared about how I'll feel and how I'll get through it all 2nd time round without it sending me (and my husband) crazy.

What I am scared about, is how I'll (if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant again) I will manage to keep the 12 weeks things quiet again - it was hard enough the first time round, but I really dont want to tell anyone at all 2nd time round just in case something happens again and I need to do all the explaining again - the explaning that I have yet to do when I go back to work when I'm ready.

Natasha, I'm also 4ft 11 (and a half! ) so know how you must have been feeling in part to carrying baby - I hope that you have all the luck in the world with this pregnancy, and I hope you get the care that you so deserve.

x