Hi
I only gave birth in Dec so not actual experience to give but also needed an em section. I'd like to get pregnant sooner rather than later and like yourself I feel like I missed out on the actual birthing experience but at same time am scared of scar rupture or something. However I did ask doctor and he said they check and see if vbac is a viable option and although they recommend trying this route, if I prefered a cs then would be more likely taken on board having had one before.
You should definately speak to your doc or consultant though- it's an important decision and was taken out of your control before so you should be allowed a say I reckon

Best of luck
Rosa x