I know alot of you have been trying longer then me . Just wanted to vent my feelings,

I've been ttc for a year. At the begining I had 3 chem pregs, I've had 21 day bloods which shows everythings fine.

We have tried the sperm meets egg, ov sticks, zestica, legs in air, zita west stuff, hardly doing, always doing it, not thinking about it and doing it for fun not babymaking.

And now, I have severe dyskaryosis which is abnormal cells on my cervix.
I'm going to hAve to have some of my cervix removed then wait 6 months until
I have another check to make sure everythings ok. I've been told NOT to get preg during this time as I can't be treated. I'm also having a biopsy. On top of this I also have a plum sized cyst in my groin.

It really feels like everythings against me, I actually can't imagine myself
ever having kids.

Feel like giving up, everyone seems to get preg at the drop of a hat. I can't bear
to be in trying for a baby forum As all the short stay bfp's upset me and make me bitter.
How sad is that?! I long to be naive as I was at the begining thinking one forgot pill would get you
preggers. Sorry to be pathetic just needed to get it out. No need to reply

Xxxx

Oh sweetie, sending you a big hug, you body is really not working with you is it! I moved from ttc for the same reason you did, it is really hard to keep saying "congratulations" when it is hi I'm new then two weeks later "hi i'm pregnant", it is not sad it is completely understandable. One week in here and you will see that not everyone can get pregnant at the drop of a hat there are loads of us having a daily battle and spending our entire lives on an emotional rollercoaster. You are in good company hope you are feeling better soon xxx

Hi sweetie,
I am so sorry to hear about your dyskaryosis and the problems you've been having ttc lately.
I can see how you must be so upset and feel like it's never going to get any better but rest assured that this will all pass and you'll get there in the end.
I too had to stop ttc while waiting for a colposcopy that I had on the 4th of Jan this year It turned out that the doc thought I only had mild dyskaryosis and didn't need any further treatment but I know the panic and worry and frustration that you're feeling. It's just horrible, especially when every one else around seems to fall pg the minute they look at their oh.
Stay around here honey - there is lots of support and people who understand how upsetting and scary this journey is. We will get there in the end!
Sending you a ((((((hug))))))
xxxx