Some of you may remember the story of loosing our first baby after long term TTC and a particularly bumpy IVF cycle where I ended up with hyperstimulation syndrome. Original post below.

The time has come !!!! We have initiated our frozen blastocyst transfer with the unit. I start taking the down regulation drugs on the 21st of this month followed by a hormone cocktail. We have a possible embryo transfer date of May 19th. We only have to pay for it know ARGH!!!

I calucated my due date I KNOW I KNOW hopelessly optimistic and guess what!!!!!!

It would be my husbands birthday 2010 and if you see the post below we got our first ever BFP on his birthday this year! Number symmetry here and feeling like it is a hopeful sign

Will let you know of our progress and how much I turn into Captain Moodswing this time. Will need special postive vibes for the tranfer day as our little snow baby might not survive the thaw meaning we will have gone through the drugs, the hope and pots of money without even a two week wait.

FIngers crossed
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My dear ladies

Thank you for everything the results today suggest 100% that the baby is not developing and a miscarriage is inevitable. It sounds so funny to say you 'lost' a baby like a glove or a pencilcase or something.

It saddens me to think how many of you, and others I know ,have gone through this.

However I remember a quote which said 'life should be measured not by the number of breaths that you draw but only by the moments that took your breath away'

As many of you know it was a bright clean blue day which happened to be my husbands birthday. Beautiful and unusual in that it was snowing on a Cornish beach. We took photos as momentos to show the baby they day moment that we became a family. It was like carrying around the most amazing secret. I wondered if anyone could tell (apart from the fact I looked nauseous).

This day was really perfect and took our breath away and I have reflected a lot but would rather have seen the elusive positive lines and been a mum. Even if is was for only a few weeks.

My husband seems a little better today. I have realised that he was also worrying about the bleeding. last year I had a massive heamorrage after surgery (not PG related) at home and fell unconcious rushed to hospital and was really poorly. He thought there was a risk of that - but I have managed to reassure him.

You ladies have been unelievable. We are both overwhelmed by the help and support here it has really helped to illuminate a dark time.

I have made an appointment for discussion on March 9th, which is soothing as we will again have a plan, I need to get some first hand information on how likely the procedure is to work.

The only thing is the clinic have not really said anythign about the MC so I might leap over to the MC forum. Its horrid having morning sickness and no living bub......

Blastocyst number 8 has been doing backstroke in liquid nitrogen. It sounds loopy but I didn;t like to think of it in the cold. Thought microscopic mittens might be in order so at least we get to retreive it.

So the future is loose a few pounds and regain fitness (no exercise due toOHSS then threatened miscarriage) and activate project snow baby number 8.

You are very special ladies thank you -

XX

Hi J-jenko,

Wishing you all the best for your IVF treatment and hope you get your BFP and it stays sticky for your husbands birthday! what a present hey! The day you have your possible embryo transfer is our wedding anniversary. :\) XX

Oh J-jenko I have been waiting for this post - YEE HA CONGRATULATIONS!!! 8 is my lucky number so I'm sending it's luck to you - May is a busy month for us LTTC'rs Oh I am so happy for you It'll not be long going on and Captain Moodswing is more than welcome to come on here and have a rant.

Really great news big hugs xxxx

woo hoo JJ3... I have everything crossed for you that it will work - and it will - I need both my JJ's (JJ2 - lilac* & JJ3 - Jenko) as bump buddies.

and to go along with your number symetry - our bump is due just before my hubbies birthday so sod's law being what it is we have both agreed it will appear on his birthday !!!

So there is definitely something in that one.

Sending you massive amounts of super defrosting powers and super sticky baby dust.

xxxxxxx

JJenko -I am thrilled to hear your news. Like many of the ladies here I followed your story and I must admit I still can't read that original post without a tear in my eye.

You are such a good support to so many of us on this board and have shared much good advice, compassion and good humour. If the number symetry doesn't prevail then good Karma definitely will as you certainly deserve some good stuff back after all you have been through. I will be thinking of you and wishing for the very best outcome. You're gonna be a mummy!!! xx

Claire Ski, Mel, Moonbean, JJ1 and Mrs Bambino

Thank you so much for your lovely words Mwah Mwah,

hopefully in about 6 and a half weeks I will have some fab news

JJ1 perhaps I can spearhead a mass migration from LT TTC to pregnancy of all forum members and all JJ's would love to be bump buddies.
thanks to the super defrosting powers too
X

[Modified by: J-Jenko on April 06, 2009 06:04 PM]

Ooooh JJ how exciting!! Sending lots and lots of positive vibes for your snow baby. Couldn't agree more with MrsBambino - you're such a support in LTTTC and you really deserve a BFP. *When* it happens in May you must just promise that you'll come back to check on us to give us wise, calming advice!

xxx

Thanks DG - so sweet of you. XX

Hi JJ, I really hope that down regging isn't too bad this time and that number 8 is a suberb specimen of healthy robust beaniness!!!
Everything crossed for you.
H.xxx

Yay brilliant news JJ! i feel it in my water that number 8 will be lucky for you. Lots of Love and vibes of procreation to you and hubby xxxxxxx

Hjanea and smiley THANKS am really hoping it is a top top surviing bean
You have all made me smile
Thanks
XX

JJ,

That original post made me so sad, I hadn't realised what you'd been through. You always have words of comfort and give your time to people on here, hopefully the good karma is heading your way.
Lots and lots of good luck and PMA your way, you truly deserve it.
xx

JJenko - all the very best - i just know that this is going to the baby selected to have you as it's mummy. Lots and lots of PMA is what is needed now!!! Lucky 8!!!!

Em xx

Warren Aj , Mrs Amanda and emerald
Thank you so much for your lovely comments. It helped to put it down. After all this time and the IVF we had to tell a few people about the MMC and am reticent to metion the frozen cycle to friends.
Great to talk
XX

J-Jenko, I've been following your story and wanted to wish you lots of luck. I've watched two sets of close friends go through IVF and appreciate what an emotional rollercoaster it can all be. I just wanted to send you lots of sticky baby dust for no 8.

Oh and as for number symmetry we got our first bfp on 25 Nov and then suffered EP in Dec, got our second bfp a few weeks ago and it's due on 25 Nov. Fate can't argue when the signs are so obvious!

Take care.
Sam x

Oh Sam good luck with the baby !! congratulations. I really hope you enjoy it as much as you can.

Number symmetry sounds like it is a winner
XX

Good luck keep us updated every thing crossed for you x

Hi JJ

I am wishing you SOOOO much luck and keeping my fingers tightly crossed for you and number 8!

Be sure to let us know if May 19th is definitely the day and I will be sending huge amounts of luck and sticky baby dust your way.

Love and hugs, NN xxx






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Yay jj3!!
Hope it all goes well for lucky number 8!!
Its bound to be lucky as 8 is the eternity/eternal symbol in an upright position- very lucky!!!

Ther number 8 is also very lucky in chinese culture!!!

Best of luck honey!!! xxxxx

Whoop Woop!

Lots of prayers and well wishes for lucky number 8!!

Hope you and hubby are keeping well.. xx