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24/10/2008 at 21:43
Miss you loads today little girl.
Love you loads miss you always. My first born
I love you, always
love from mummy
03/11/2008 at 19:10
This is very sweet Linz..
I experienced a still birth 9 yrs ago so I know how it feels! My little girl was called Jessica and she was twin 1, twin 2 Bethany is fine and I have a little boy called Rowen he is 7.
03/11/2008 at 20:52
weird aint it. you never get over it, you never get better but you just learn to cope. sometimes I feel bad for not crying as much as I used to.
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29/11/2008 at 10:10
I've only been looking on the lounge forum lately so have missed this most but OMG you have been through so much, you osund very strong.
I think you're original post on here for little India is lovely. How many years has it been?
xx xx xx
29/11/2008 at 11:58
same here tasha i have onlt been on the lounge and ttc foruem lately
i think you are a very brave women i take my hat off to you
29/11/2008 at 17:00
10/12/2008 at 09:37
Missed the last couple of posts sorry girls.
I actually handled it really badly this time. I suffer from Borderline Personailitty disorder and I have had no help from my new doctor and I went to him and told him I was really struggling and if it werent for the kids I would not be around today and he just shrugged. I overspent money big time. OMG I have got us in to so much financial trouble I cant believe how stupid I had been but I couldnt help it. Rob does understand when I say I cant I really cant. It caused so much trouble Rob was considering getting me a flat and making me leave. I would still come for the kids in the morning for school etc but we just didnt know what was going to happen. My behaviour was so erractic I cant explain really but I was trying to do as much as I could to annoy rob. The modelling made things worse coz that encouraged my nutty streak and allowed me to vent (as I thought) or use it as an outlet but it did just encourage it and rob found my moodswings and hyper moment more often and more severe.
Feel better lately and we have worked out our troubles. I moved into the sceond living room. We had a pull out double bed in there. And after a while Rob asked me to move back in the room with him and to stay. But it took me a few more days beofre I did, I didnt want to go back to bed if it was just so he could have sex again. But we didnt anyway for a while we would just talk. We are getting on great now but I am still having to pay for all the trouble I got us in whilst I had my bad streak. Im scared to answer to phone Imscared of the post everything. The CAB are trying to help us although they said it will take a bit of time. I just cant believe how much I let down a great family. I really a horrible person who is selfish. Rob puts up with so much he does derserve better and the girls to.
I hate being like this I wish he had a wife he could be proud of and the girls had a mum they were proud of. I wreak everything I touch, family, bank accounts, friends and job. I cant even do my job preperly. Oh well I think I am going to have a cry in the shower now.
10/12/2008 at 18:51
11/12/2008 at 19:10
Linz, sorry to hear that you are struggling!
The CAB will be a mega help, my friend used the CCCS via the national debtline. Whatever you do, do not ring debt free direct as they are useless and will cost you more to get things sorted out!
Your family obviously need you and love you.
12/12/2008 at 20:49
sorry to hear you're having such a rough time.. am sure your girls are very proud of you and it sounds as though you and Rob are sorting things out. don't beat yourself up too much, you've been through some horrible things and come out the other side.. sometimes things just get on top of us.
hope the CAB can help, i think most families are having money problems at the moment (or that's what i tell myself when all the bills get a bit much!). you have a lovely little family, sending big hugs xx
13/12/2008 at 09:26
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