I had a really upsetting afternoon and I just had mto share it as I am still so upset. I went back to my course today and it was so great the mum's were so understanding and I got to cuddle one ladies little boy for a good hour and he was so cute. It made me really clucky though and even more keen to ttc again. The person who orgnised the course for us mum's in the area knows I suffer from dperession so after class she made sure I was ok with that which was thoughtful. BUUUUUUT it made me late so I dashed to the supermarket with my son trying his little best to keep up. I then call a taxi let them know I need to go to the school to get my daughter so not to take long. I have never had a problem with that but this time. It was a good thing I got my partner to call the school and tell them I would be late because here is my poor 6 year old left waiting until 3:30pm, SCHOOL FINISHES AT 2:45pm. I was so upset and angry by the time the taxi got there and I am having heart palpitations thinking of all the horrible things that could happen to Emily. Luckily when I got there the teacher had Emily in the classroom with her two children drawing on the board without a worry. Still it does not excuse the utter panic I was made to feel stranded at the shops waiting for the taxi that was late by atleast half and hour :x. I comaplained but I doubt much will be done, I have been fine without a car until now. Now I feel like we have to get one or I will have to make sure one of my friends or family can pick me up on Fridays if my partner has a shift then. Its just added some stress to my life I did not need and it was so upsetting thinking about my little girl all alone (even though she wasn't) my chest really hurt I thought I was going to have a heart attack from the worry and I was nearly in tears. I have had enough loss if something happened to her that would be it I think.
Atleast when we got home all was weel her little brother (aged 4) made her some chocolates today how cute was that!
He has problems with his speech so there he is walking along side me practicing how he is going to give them to her "here Emily chocolates" he is going and people wonder why I want to have more.
Ok I have gotten that off my chest thankyou for listening I realise you ladies all have your own problems but it was just so stressful and I don't have many people to talk to. I was so worried.