I thought that I was getting along with my second mmc, that I was prepared from the begining that something wrong might happen (since I was bleeding the last 2 weeks - pregnant for 5+3). Actually I felt relieved thinking that I didn't want a pregnancy that will keep me in bed worrying to death all the time.
I haven't realy grieved which I think is striking now.
There are days that I feel bad, and realy scared that I won't be able to have children.
I'm going to do some tests next month and I'm so worried that the doctor will find something not normal.
My fiance is always there for me, even when I'm so angry and scream at him, and he tries to support him, but I know that it has been bad for him as well. Then I'm trying to hide my feelings because I don't want to upset him. I just want us to be happy with a baby :\(
I want so much to cry now but I'm in the office and I don't want anyone to see me ( my soul is :cry

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On top of that I'm jealous of every pregnant woman on earth. Probably I shouldn't be feeling like that and I regret it, but it makes me so sad seeing women with a big belly!
I feel like hiding, staying home and doing nothing. I don't feel like meeting people, I just want to be on my own...