Hi ladies and wee ones x I've not posted for a while but have enjoyed keeping up-to-date with your posts and pics x I'm posting to vent really... Amelia is nearly 16 weeks and blossoming beautifully, we're very lucky, she's happy and content, has her last feed around 11pm and sleeps through till I wake her each morning about 8ish. Harry, 2yrs, adores her, he's accepted the new addition very well, as has Tom our eldest at 10yrs. Things should be going swell, and they are, but i just dont feel like I'm actually taking any of it in, or enjoying it. I feel like I'm a passanger, and i'm just watching everything. My husband has a new business, he was made redundant about 18months ago so we took the plunge to give it a go. The last 6 months things have gone through the roof, the business has even had to move into bigger premises, which is fantastic of course, but its so bloody demanding. I've been going into the office 9 to 6 every day for the past 2 weeks, my parents have had the children, I literally get up at 7.30, dress, feed and change the kids then drop them off, straight in to work. When I come home I'm too tired to cook so takeaway it is, every week I've wanted to go to a WW meeting, but not a chance as he doesnt get home till late, laundry is piling up too, so all weekend I'm catching up on the housework and laundry, try to cram in a bit of food shopping too if I can, with all 3 kids can be trying at times... Its really non-stop...We're off to Chester Zoo this Sat to do something with the kids, which I know we'll all enjoy, but in the back of mind is the thought that I still havent caught up with the house, that I;m not spending enough time with Amelia, that I still need to get so much done at the office to help my husband... I can't speak to him as he's working so very hard, he's still at work now, how can i tell him that I'm tired, that Im on maternity leave yet am working more hours than I did before! Amelia is changing so much, I'm scared of missing it, i'm worried Harry and Tom will feel that I dont spend enough time with them, also I feel awful that my parents are having the children so much... its all alot to deal with.
I dont expect any response.. I just needed to get it out i think. I know how very lucky I am, and I am happy, just feel pulled in every direction, I feel a bit better already just for typing this xx