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19/06/2014 at 12:23
Haven't been on here for a while now, think I last updated the tri threads on Saturday.
on Monday 16th June at 12.54 Molly Elizabeth was born by emergency c section.
I was taken in on Saturday morning for an induction, 4 pessarys, no sleep and a lot of false contractions later I was 2cm dilated so at 12.30 on Monday they decided to take me round to the labour ward to break my waters. My waters were broken successfully, and I was put on the ctg to check baby - no heart rate. They reexamined me and I had a cord prolapse - the cord had come out of my cervix first and she was now consequently resting her head on it and cutting off her blood and oxygen supply. The next thing I know an alarm is hit I'm told to get on my hands and knees and that's where it all becomes a blur. All I really remember is being wheeled to theatre, being in a lot of pain as I've had no pain relief at this point, thousands of people clambering around me sticking tubes everywhere and there was one midwife who held my hand and I asked her to promise me she was going to be ok. Then I was put under general anaesthetic and the next time I came to coherently it was about 3pm. My eyes were open before that but I have no memory of what happened. My mum was holding the baby and she was perfect. I've struggled non stop for the last 3 days, both with pain from the emergency c section, and with my emotions towards it all. I saw the midwife at home today (was released yesterday) and she has provided me with a group called "birth stories" where I can seek counselling for what happened and talk it through with someone which will be really useful for me I think. I'm still traumatised by it all and I don't know when you stop being traumatised by it. It's day three so maybe it's all the hormones not helping but I'm just very sad about how it all happened.
anyways, enough of a miserable post because I still have the most gorgeous little girl in the world
19/06/2014 at 12:46
That must have been very scary WW. Give yourself time to come to terms with it, a group where you can talk it through sounds like it would be good for you. Molly is beautiful! Congratulations! So glad she is healthy.
Oh my gosh you poor thing, sounds like you've not had a great time of it at all! But your little girl is absolutely gorgeous, huge congratulations xxx
19/06/2014 at 12:54
Bless you, I'm so sorry to hear you had such a rotten experience but your little girl is absolutely gorgeous. Wishing you a speedy recovery, time is a great healer and I hope talking it over with someone helps you xxx
19/06/2014 at 13:20
Owhat a gorgeous girl.
What a terrible time u have had. I had a category 1 section under general with my first, we were absolutely shell shocked, more so h than me because Iv no memory at all of what happened and h seen it all unfold infront of him and heard the staff shouting etc. I didn't really do anything about it till 6 weeks post birth because I kept saying about the birth and all everyone would say was 'well at least baby is here and safe' and yes ultimately that's what I wanted but I felt I'd been through such trauma and just handed a baby and expected to get on with things. So I spoke to my gp who sent me to birth reflections, it was at the meeting that it became apparent there'd been lots of errors and we were advised to Pursue a complaint. We couldn't think about that till about 8 months later, the complaint went on for a good few months but my h was like a dog with a bone and would not let it drop at all, and in the end we got a policy change and 2 staff members were given retraining.
In these early days take 1 thing at a time, concentrate on your recovery, Iv had another section since and was fine but with the crash section it took ages to feel like me again so take any help offered and really rest as much as you can. Birth reflections might be a good outlet for you and over the coming weeks just jot down done questions/concerns and keep them
For when you go to your meeting.
Take it easy
19/06/2014 at 13:35
Firstly, congratulations, she is absolutely gorgeous!
Second, I'm so sorry to hear that you had such a traumatic experience, it sounds so scary. Give yourself some time to come to terms with it, is really tough when things haven't gone according to plan and have turned so scary so quickly. The post birth hormones really don't help! I had a total meltdown about S's birth of day 3 and they recommended birth reflections to me too. I went and I'm really glad I did. I didn't go until S was a few months old because it was all too raw before then.
A lot of people said the same to me as TRF, "oh it's ok really because baby is fine and he is worth it all" but how you feel about your baby and how you feel about their birth aren't always the same thing.
Huge hugs to you, I hope you start to feel better soon and recover quickly xxx
19/06/2014 at 14:10
Congratulations, you little girl is gorgeous. I'm so sorry that you've had a traumatic experience, big hugs to you xxx
19/06/2014 at 14:12
She's gorgeous!!! Congratulations! Sorry it did not go how you hoped, hope you get the support you need xx
19/06/2014 at 17:38
She really is gorgeous. Congratulations.x
19/06/2014 at 18:26
Beautiful baby!! Sorry it wasn't the experience you hoped for though. Scary times, but hope you come to terms with it in time xx
19/06/2014 at 19:04
Sounds like such a scary time, you should go to the group I'm sure talking about it will help. She's is absolutely gorgeous tho congratulations x
19/06/2014 at 19:46
Oh WW I had that horrible feeling in my stomach just reading that. That sounds so scary but I'm glad your both ok. The group sounds like a good idea, I really hope it helps.
And she is super gorgeous! Congratulations. What did Molly weigh?x
19/06/2014 at 20:43
Congratulations WW on your beautiful girl! Sorry your experience was so hard for you, like popcorn I did the birth reflections and found it so helpful- it helped give me timings and have things put in order that I had jumbled up in my mind (should help you find out what happened after your GA), I waited until O was about 5 months to do it. People will say, at the end of the day your baby arrived safely and healthy (and I heard this over and over again and thought I would hit the next person that said it) but it doesn't mean your comfortable/happy/aware of the birth you eventually got. It's taken 9 months and I'm still not 100% comfortable with my sons arrival into the world but it is getting easier!
19/06/2014 at 21:39
Congratulations on Molly's birth, she's gorgeous, and I love the name. I'm so sorry her arrival was so traumatic though, it sounds very scary. I hope you manage to talk it through and get to a place where you can come to terms with it. X
19/06/2014 at 21:40
20/06/2014 at 00:04
Sorry to hear you had such a scary time of it. It's such a shame that things aren't explained to women, even when it's a rush. Hope you can find a good way to come to terms with the experience. Take care
On a positive note, so glad your baby arrived safely, she's gorgeous x x
20/06/2014 at 07:11
Sorry the labour and birth were not what was expected. Hopefully the group will help once you feel up to it. You have a beautiful little girl, congratulations!xx
20/06/2014 at 07:33
Molly is gorgeous WW - sending you a huge hug to help you come to terms with the delivery. Do seek help - whenever you are ready. XXX
20/06/2014 at 18:39
OMG that must have been so scary WW. I'm glad your little girl is ok though. I can't offer any help or advice with your recovery so hopefully there are ladies on here that can help with that.
21/06/2014 at 20:22
WW, she's gorgeous! It really does sound like you were put through the ringer. I know my experience was different, but it was fairly traumatic as well, and although I'm still bothered by it, it does get easier. Talking about it helps, so hopefully just posting your birth story helps you make sense of it. i still cry any time I think about Isla's birth and how unfair it seems, and the MW said that's completely normal, especially with all those different hormones.
Congratulations, though, she really is beautiful.
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