The last few weeks I've been doing four days a week at work and last week was working off-site in London so really long hours too. I feel like E doesn't want me anymore. She is always full of smiles for my mum in the morning, and completely indifferent to me when I collect her in the evening. On Saturday we were at mums and she was quite upset. Everytime I tried to soothe her she got more upset and clearly wanted my mum. She won't settle for me in the night anymore either, only my H.
I'm facing another four day week this week (hopefully the last) and I'm really dreading it. I don't want things to deteriorate further, but I don't know how to help it either. In the evenings she just seems so much more distressed when I'm trying to settle her and I hate seeing her so upset so it just seems fairer on her to let H do it. Which in turn makes me feel worse again.
Sorry, just needed to get it all down I guess.