Hey guys. I know I havn't been with the site for long but I'm worried. I had an MMC in June and again last month, now I'm pregnant again. It's too early to take a test, I have a 23 day cycle, I'm not due til monday and when I do test, it doesn't normally show til the 5th week. I had 2 MMCs' before I had our son, whose now 12, and all of my pregnancies have stopped at 5 wks. I've had 2 days of nausea (I'm only sick when I'm ill or pregnant and I'm not ill!) my nipples are tingling and really sensitive, my breasts are very tender, I have enough wind to inflate a hot air balloon and I'm horny as hell! With every pregnancy, my body's let me know really early that it's happened. I had an idea that I was on friday but I guess I was too scared to admit it even to myself. Now most of my ususal early signs have shown up, I know that it HAS happened. I've had some lower abdominal twinges round about where my ovaries are. I had these pains the last 2 pregnancies and I'm now going off my head that it's a sign I'm gonna lose this one too. Don't know how I'm gonna cope if it happens again, don't know if I can handle 3 in less than 6mths. As far as I know, the clearblue digital is the most sensitive test on the market but if anyone knows a better one please tell me. The doctors at the hospital have told me that as soon as I have a positive test they will get me in for a scan. I'm tearing my hair out and can't stop crying as I type this. But I need to go to work now so I'll be logging on after lunch. Any help or advice will be welcome. Need to go throw up now. Please help me. Xx

Oh Tufty, my gosh you have had a rough ride, and I wish I could say with full certainty that this time everything will be just fine. Lots of hugs and good wishes to you. Just try to take each day, each hour as it comes, and honestly don't wind yourself up about trying to not get attached. It's prectically impossible to feel differently than however you do. So if you feel overwhelmed with love and anxiety let your self know that is okay. While hard on you, I can't imagine a better feeling for a tiny baby then to know just how very wanted they are. Take care of yourself, give your self lots of treats and keep us updated. Best wishes

Really sounds like youve had a hard time the last few months, and no one can blame you for feeling the way you do but you really do need to try and relax. IUf you stress about it its just going to make things worst. I can say, with all the other girls on here we have our fingers firmly crossed for you. Third time lucky tufty, lets hope..

Sam- due tomorrow! xx

Hey guys! Thanks for the chat. Unfortunately I don't feel any better. I can't stop crying and I'm so scared. I keep hearing people say what's for you won't go by you, and I've used it so many times myself, but what if it's NOT for me? Emotions are running wild just now and I'm finding it so hard to be positive. The docs wont do any serious testing til I've had 3 consecutive MCs and unfortunately I've had a child in the middle of my four, so it wont be until the next MC. I guess I just didn't think it would be so hard this time, normally I'm really optimistic to the point where it annoys hubby. But I just can't do it this time. I just want to sleep til I'm 3 months gone. I really am struggling here, I don't know if my head can cope.

Hi Tufty
After my 2nd m/c, I got fed up with people telling me that everything happens for a reason. I just wanted to rip their heads off, although I know they were trying to be sensituve and supportive. You have just got to try and relax as much as possible. So far my 3rd pregnancy is ok, although at 14 wks I am still shitting myself that something bad is going to happen. My 1st 2 m/c's were only a few months apart and every current twinge, pain etc makes me think that its all over. Silly to some I know. Like you they wouldnt scan early as this is my 3rd and ive not physically had 3 m/c's....however please let your doctor know and play on your emotions. He/she might get you up the epau.
All my love
Debs
xxx

Hi Tufty could you ask the doc for a blood test to confirm it as tests dont show early with you just an idea then they can monitor you hope all goes well take care
Lin

Good luck with everything. I'm sure your emotions are all over the place at the moment with what has happened in the past. I really do hope that everything works out for you this time & wish I could give you some more reassurance that everything will be fine.

Take care
Hilary x

Hi Tufty - lots and lots of love and hope to you, I'll keep everything crossed for you.

xxx

Hi Tufty - really hope you get an early scan, also you could docs do do your HCG levels every 48 hours which will show how the pregnancy is developing. I had this done when a mc was suspected back in January and confirmed my worst fears - however I am now 32+3 and whilst absolutely paranoid for first 12 weeks (despite early scan and HCG levels doubling) I started to relax at about 26 weeks!!

Big hug to you and I would go and chat to your GP as they should sort out the HCG tests for you.

C.xxx

hi tufty. i feel for you hun. ive had 2 m/c. the last one was in april o7 and im now 9 weeks pregnant again. i was really worried about losing it again so i rang the early pregnancy unit at my local hospital and they got me in 2 days later for an early scan. im sure if you let them know how anxious you are they will see you. got my fingers and toes crossed for you hun.xxxx

hi tufty. i really know what youre going through. i had 2 mcs before i had my son, then 2 more and an ectopic last year. however i am now 37+4, and still cant relax.
i know that no matter what anyone says you wont believe it til you do that test, and then youll prob worry even more. i know i did. All i can say is TRY and put it to the back of your mind (so not easy), and concentrate on staying positive. the suggestion of phoning your hosp 4 an early scan is a good one, however if youre too early they wont be able to see anything and that can make it even worse, cos then you have to wait another week 4 another scan(been there 2!). sorry if im telling you stuff you already know, but theres not a lot else i or anyone can say.
i have everything crossed for you, and hope that it really will be 3rd time lucky.
lots of love and big hugs
Rebecca xxx