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22/10/2009 at 08:44
Im 8 weeks pregnant tomorrow (Friday) and due 4th June 2010.This is my first ever pregnancy! Im 25, married and survived cervical cancer (delivery will probably be middle to end of May cuz of surgeries)Im nuts currently, from the moment I found out I was pregnant with our "miracle baby" ive constantly worried I shall lose the little one. So much so that for the first week I was always running to the loo to check. I didnt even know I could get pregnant and now I am im worried I wont be able to hold the little one in.
Last night I had a dream that I miscarried, TWICE! (must have been twins) and...I dont feel upset. I feel shocked that i would dream such a horrible thing! ive been having a lot of baby dreams..one this boy had a floppy neck...like a puppet...the other was on saturday that breastfeeding was like a computer game..chomp chomp chomp try to get the boob in before the mouth shuts hahaha.
Is this normal? Dreams like that arent a sign of "things to come" are they? (not the boob choping...but the dream last night)
I know im currently still "early days" but every pregnancy that goes all the way has to start somewhere right.
Thank you for your time
22/10/2009 at 10:06
When I was pregnant with my first I dreamed I put him down somewhere and forgot where.When I found him it was under a pile of bricks in a fireplace,dead.That was really scary.My son was fine,he's 11 now,and there were another6 after him.
I think the dreams are probably just dreams.If you read anything into them it's just that you're worrying about your unborn baby,maybe the responsibility,that it'll be okay,it's a big thing.
Scary all the same though.
22/10/2009 at 10:17
and when I said "I dont feel upset"...its not that I didnt but it was more shock that I would dream such a horrible horrible dream.
I guess my fears went into my dream. My hubby said it was just fears and he said this baby is a "keeper" cuz of him/her being such a miracle.I think I shall be able to rest a bit easy after my first scan...in like 4 weeks time! forever away!
22/10/2009 at 13:08
firstly congratulations on your little miracle. I think you are so worried about things they are coming out in your dreams. It took me five yeras to fall with Harry (although I havent been what you have been through) I did the same thing keep going to the loo especially early on, I had a few nasty dreams too, one day I had terrible stomach ache and was petrified it was all going wrong but now I have a healthy little almost two year old.
I hope the dreams stop as they can feel SO real. I bet you are counting down the days til your scan.
Take Care x
22/10/2009 at 18:04
Thankfully my cancer was dealt with very very quickly!It all began in April 2009 and by 18th September 2009 I was finally given the all clear after 2 surgeries and a visit into a loud/scary MRI machine!Falling pregnant did happen very quickly! The first "session" after all my surgeries! 13th September I must have "fallen".I just cant believe that I am pregnant after only 1 full month off the pill! thats why its such a miracle, the shock ive been though with the cancer, healing from surgeries and BAMN pregnant!
Ive not suffered with morning sickness. All ive had is spots! heartburn! "crampies" and cant eat veg soup anymore (I love it) as it turns my tummy! and loo breaks! so ive got off "lightly" with symptoms but then the women in my family have had it easy with pregnancies...but yet im worried cuz of what my cervix has been though, my mother suffered a LOT of losses so I guess its on my mind a lot!
I am truely counting down for my scan to make sure everything IS ok inside! So a scary, very vivid dream doesnt help matters *rolls eyes*
But I guess scary dreams are maybe part of the uncertain situation until "safe" after 12 weeks. I just hope tonight I get enough sleep!
22/10/2009 at 21:00
22/10/2009 at 21:56
Hi hun I'm sure all will be well,I suffered cervical cancer,now have 2 gorgeous boys-had terrible trouble conceiving,but they're here now-c-sec but that's the least of my worries now!
Dreams I think are your fears,manefested into your subconcious. Try and rest hun,and good luck with your pregnancy x x
22/10/2009 at 23:19
Did you manage to carry to "full term"?that is one of my fears if I do make it past the 12 week mark....worried that as soon as there is any weight my cervix will open up...im a bag of nerves!!!
23/10/2009 at 21:12
Yeah I did,my problem was exact opposite-had such scarring on cervix from ops that it refused to dilate at all,so had to have sections. Was told after a week of being induced the gel had done it's job but nothing!!!! So was booked in for section 3 days later-then because I'd been told I couldn't give birth,my waters broke at 6am-had emergency section at 11am that day!!!!
That was the only thing written on my birth plan-no section!!!! Trust me. But having said that after my treatment I was told I'd be lucky to have children so I'm very very lucky,and count my blessings frequently x
24/10/2009 at 10:34
Thank you. Now I know to be aware that I might have to have a C section. Thats ok, as long as the baby is happy and healthy eh!
Had vivid, random scary dreams last night. Fires, fighting and murder. lovely. Just what you want! *rolls eyes* I think this is something im going to have to get used to.
29/10/2009 at 09:15
I had horrible pregnancy dreams and they are just anxieties coming through in your dreams. try to relax and enjoy your pregnancy
02/11/2009 at 17:53
they have calmed down a bit now the dreams. Im still concerned about whats going on in there. On wednesday I have the doc and he said he will try to find a heartbeat for me. I will be 9 weeks and 5 days then...I know its maybe too early but im hoping against all the odds that a heart will be found. Adam (hubby) is coming with me as he doesnt want me freaking out alone, without him if he cant find one *gets emotional*...wow. yeah. Im sooo emotional currently and thirsty and hungry all the time and I just cant wait for my scan in about 2 weeks time. I think I shall relax a bit more then.
We are currently in talks if maybe I should have a stitch put in as a "just in case"
02/11/2009 at 20:50
03/11/2009 at 08:56
thank you ♥Only one more day to get though and then docs hahaha, waiting for something like this gives me something to focus on hahaha inbetween sorting out the house and trying to find a new job hahaI have to get one before I show as I wont know how to explain that one and no one wants to employ a pregnant chick! haha (which is unfair) Going to phone hospital in a minute as not heard yet from my Oncologist and if he thinks a stitch is a good idea xxx
03/11/2009 at 13:44
You dont do things by half eh girl???!!!! New baby,job and house-enough stress for next 5 years that hun!!!!
Hope you manage to keep busy til Wednesday,pls let us know how you got on x x
03/11/2009 at 18:08
today was kept very busy! ended up walking up town in the pouring rain with my friend for a look around the shops...couldnt help but pop into mothercare and coo over the baby clothes
Its now the evening and not long to go until it will be tomorrow and then not long until docs! 2pm!
Ive also been told today by hubby and friend that im looking fuller and rounder in the the tum already!!! and I can see it now...i thought it was just too many biscuits!!! Its feeling pretty hard too...eep!Its too soon to show so I know its not baby...everything is just starting to push out clearly!!! Sucking it in feels uncomfortable though...oh well, might as well let it all hang out!!!
Yeah...I do burn the candle at both ends. Will clean the house tomorrow morning...living with 4 cats and 3 fluffy isnt easy!!! Add a husband making a mess and ive got my hands full!oooh boy hahaha
No word from Oncologist so shall phone tomorrow morning. Will also talk to doc about a stitch.
ooh I hope to hear the heart! I think that would just totally make my day! Im trying not to get my hopes up though!!!
Hope everyone else has been ok. Still not more scary dreams so thats good!!! If anything...*ahem* dreams about exes...*wink*
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