i feel so lucky to have all this support and yeah im am so very young, and really to young to give a baby what it needs, so ive already had an appointment to talk about the abortion procedure and im booked in for wednesday to have the temination, im so scared but trying to stay as strong as i can. i just hope i ownt regre tit. it sounds silly but sometimes i think is this god trying to say sorry and replcaing the baby i lost, its stupid but it makes me think. no one is forcing me to do this actually the babys father is begging me to keep it, but its mainly his fault i dont want to bring a baby into the world to let him hurt it like he hurt me, i will always class the babys as my babys but babys that were to special to bring into this horrible world, when this is over my main prioritys is to get good grates at school, help my mum get better and the most improtant one sort my life and and make sure im happy, i will never look back at what ive done because i have plenty of time to have babys and i cant wait to have a propler family, i do think i could be a great mum now but it wouldnt have a proper family we dont have a stable relationship, we dont have jobs, we live with out parents and we're both still at school none of it would work, its best to wait.
thanks for all the support its been so nice

i feel so much better xx