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20/03/2015 at 09:03
Morning all. Hope you're all doing ok. Sorry for my woe is me posts yesterday, in some ways I dealt with the disappointment better than last time but in other ways it hit me much harder as I'm really beginning to lose hope. I hope everyone understood what I meant yesterday with the "not my time" thing - soooo many people keep telling me that but it upsets more than comforts because I don't believe in destiny, and also it feels like I should be philosophical instead of upset - which is impossible. Just wanted to clear that up, I am never ever ever ungrateful for any advice that I am given here.
So, CD2. Nothing to report. AF heavier than last month. My cycles have now gone from 27 days to 25 which is strange. I guess it's because of the meds but it's giving me an LP of just 10 days. I know it's not catastrophic but I thought the ideal was between 12 and 14. Am going to speak to the clinic about going straight to IVF. IUI odds aren't that much higher than conceiving naturally and it's messing with my head. I'm booking an acupuncture appointment for early next week too. No idea if it'll work but I might as well try. To be honest I don't see why the next go of IUI will be any different to the last two, I'm almost pretty much resigned to not conceiving at all at the moment. I'm sick of getting my hopes up to be dashed.
I've got the day off today so will do things that will make me feel a bit brighter. Am looking forward to yoga this evening and I'm meeting someone for coffee at 12pm. Going to pick up some Vietnamese baguettes from the food market too. They are expensive but look amazing. And I want to treat myself. Hi to everyone who follows. X
20/03/2015 at 10:38
Hi enjayee. I don't think anyone thought you were being "woe is me" just sorry you're going through all this. Good luck with the acupuncture, as you say it's worth a shot. You never know the next round of iui might be the one that works. When are you going to call the clinic to enquire about ivf? Hope you enjoy your treats, they're so much healthier than mine, I'm currently eating a custard donut from tesco
afm it's cd3 and most of my pregnancy symptoms have gone apart from the sore boobs. I know it sounds ridiculous given how early in the pregnancy we were but we've named our baby, I believe this one was a boy. Don't know why and can't begin to explain how I believe the last mc in November was a girl but i knew with c that she was a girl from the moment I found out I was pregnant maybe a lucky guess but it gives some comfort to give them an identity. So this baby has been named jed, it means beloved by God in Hebrew. I don't feel half as despondent as I did in November, which I feel guilty about in a way. But I've accepted that it's happened, I'm glad it happened early in the pregnancy rather than later, and I'm treasuring my c and my hubby all the more and trying to focus on other things.
My love and big waves to all who follow xxxx
20/03/2015 at 12:05
Afternoon all. I'm up to my eyes at work so this will be a quick one from me!
Enjayee - Is there any reason why you aren't going for IVF now? Looking at stats, I believe IVF is more successful than IUI? Also, don't assume it's your body not working - the sperm may not be doing their job either....
Luna - I don't think naming your baby is/was ridiculous; if it helps you and your H cope, it's definitely a good idea. Huge hugs x
AFM - No news really, think I'm ov'ing today so we've missed this one too but I just don't care anymore! Off to the NEC on Sunday to spend my bonus on craft stuff, cant wait!
Hello to all who follow x
20/03/2015 at 13:50
Luna - I don't think it's ridiculous at all. If it helps, then this is only a good thing. I am thinking of you. X
Tayto - are things ok with hubby? If you need to speak you can always PM me for a sympathetic ear, goodness knows you have been there for all of us. Enjoy the craft fair on Sunday. Huge hugs x
Well we were given IUI because H's sperm count went up so much and they recommended it as it was less invasive. However it is really screwing with my mind mentally as it's the same odds as if we were to conceive naturally and my head can't take it. I don't care about how many injections and hormones I have to take and how many cameras have to go up the vajayjay - I would eat my own face to get our much wanted baby and I've literally just looked at the clinic's odds for IVF - 48% success rate vs. 18% for IUI (not cumulative odds). To me it's a no brainer. We're going to talk about it later when H has finished work.
I'm logging off for the weekend but I feel a little better after meeting a friend for coffee - gonna go shopping now, then yoga later which should hopefully sort me out a bit in time for the weekend. Tomorrow I am planning to cut loose and get drunk, I just don't care at the moment! Have great weekends all, I am sending all of us so many vibes - I think we're all a bit down in the dumps recently but I am so happy and privileged that I can count every single one of you in my support network. I just hope I am even half as supportive of you all as you are of me. Thank you all for everything. Xx
20/03/2015 at 19:28
Bit of a manic day so only got back on here now. I agree it's a no brainer; hope your H can see it the same way. I know what they mean about IUI being less invasive but I'm aghast that they still offer it despite the success rates being so low in comparison to IVF.
Things aren't ok with us; H still can't see his bad lifestyle habits are impacting me also. I'll save the rant up for another day though!
Hope you have a lovely weekend enjayee - your plans sound like lots of fun - enjoy! xxx
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