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06/06/2014 at 08:26
It's CD2 for me. I feel really stupid for getting my hopes up yesterday and also for getting hubby's hopes up too. I saw his face when he thought he saw a line and he was so happy - so for me to tell him that I'd got my period was awful. Yesterday evening before dinner I got so angry at myself for daring to think it would be a positive and am ashamed to say I had a meltdown in the kitchen where I just berated myself horribly and said some awful things to myself, which hubby heard and didn't react well to. I'm so sick of this, I really am. I hate the effect it has on the both of us at the time. Sometimes I want to give up, especially when there were two FB announcements this week, one of which was just after I got my period. A girl in one of my FB groups was also complaining about her pregnancy hormones - I'm sure they're awful at the time but I wanted to tell her to embrace them as a lot of ladies would like to have that problem. I didn't though, I'm not that horrible a person! I'm very sad today but can't talk about it so I just have to get over it. My period is heavy and every time I feel it it's just a reminder that I've failed again.
Anyway, all of that rubbish aside, I hope everyone's well and got nice weekends planned! I'm off to a wedding tomorrow but it will be CD3 and that tends to be my heaviest day - I hate going to occasions when I'm heavy, I much prefer to be at home and near my bathroom. Never mind :-)
06/06/2014 at 08:41
Oh Enjayee, really sorry to see you go through this. I wish there was an easy answer :( Hope you have a lovely time at the wedding tomorrow
06/06/2014 at 08:56
Oh honey I just commented on yesterday's thread. I know how hard it is. Hugs.
I'm also going to a wedding tomorrow! *ponders if its the same one...*
5dpo here. Feel like crap today! Hoping the snotty nose and itchy ears bugger off by tomorrow! x
06/06/2014 at 09:22
Huge hugs Enjayee - hope you have a good time at the wedding. In the best possible way, get a few drinks down you, feel sorry for yourself for a little while and then get back on that horse again...there's not much more you can do but keep on keeping on and be kind to yourself, sometimes you can do everything right. You will get there, i'm sure of it, i know you don't feel like it at the moment, we are all here for you xx
Hi Hazel and Rod, hope you feel better soon
Not much to report - end of 15dpo, sore boobs kicked in yesterday which normally happens a day or two before ov so hopefully its right around the corner if not already happened. We booked a city trip to NYC middle of July for a few days - H had some air miles to use up so very excited as i've never been before. I'm sure it was only the other week i said that i'd be happy never to sit on a plane again......!!
06/06/2014 at 09:38
Thanks everyone, your words mean a lot - I feel like I post the same thing cycle after cycle. Hubby said that he hates himself giving me a hug whilst I cry as it goes against his principles (he thinks I should just pull my socks up and get on with it). And although he's right in that I should just get on with it, it's not easy as women, who go through the whole emotional thing, to just get on with it after seeing a BFN or getting AF. I hope it was just the emotion talking. I'm planning to talk to him about it when I'm in a better frame of mind. I've booked an appointment with the doctor, I think he'll just say "come back after a year" but I'm still having mid cycle spotting (I think it's old blood but would be good to know if that's normal) so I figured we'd kill two birds with one stone, just in case they are able to do things a bit earlier over here in Denmark.
Rod - hope you feel better soon! Unless you are coming to Copenhagen tomorrow, we won't be at the same wedding ;-) I hope you have a lovely time. x
Tonka - fingers crossed you've caught ov or that it comes soon if it hasn't already! Awesome stuff about NYC - I went for the first time in April and loved it. I can recommend some places if you are interested :-) x
06/06/2014 at 09:54
Enjayee - huge huge hugs for you. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hope you have a nice time at the wedding & get some answers from the docs.
Hazel - hello!
Rod - hope the 2ww goes quickly for you with a lovely ending x Have a nice time at the wedding you're going to too!
Tonka - hope you ov soon!
AFM - CD34 and definitely not pregnant so mustn't have ov'ed yet. Still no point in picking back up my temping yet as I'm only getting blocks of 2 hours sleep per night. Little bit down about how my cycle has got so messed up with the op :-(
06/06/2014 at 09:57
Sorry Hazel, completely forgot to say hi! Hope you are ok. X
06/06/2014 at 09:58
Tayto - thanks, lovely. X I feel for you re the temping: my sleeping has gone back to normal now apart from last night where I woke up at 3am! It's not good though when you're not sleeping properly and you want to be able to read what your body is doing!
06/06/2014 at 10:10
I'm a twat. Sorry Enjayee. I knew you were in Copenhagen. Sorry!
06/06/2014 at 10:37
Sorry I've not been around in ages, there's not much for me to report really we're still waiting for our second SA which will be next month.
I was just doing some Friday morning lurking so thought I'd say hi.
Enjaynee, I'm so sorry that you are so sad TTC really does take its toll emotionally. You haven't failed please don't beat yourself up in that way. I blocked all pregnant people from my FB news feed and took a break from there altogether for a while, maybe you should try that? I hope the Dr is supportive when you go, be kind to yourself poppet. My H always tells me the best babies take a while to make, but when we get one it will all have been worth it, you're going to get a good one xxx
Rod, I hope the treatment is going well, everything crossed for you here x
Tonka, I love NYC you'll have a fabulous time!!
Tayto, sorry your op has messed your cycle, I sprained my ankle this month and it delayed ov 7 days and your body has been through a lot with an operation. I hope it gets back to normal soon as you start getting more sleep x
As I said I've not got much to report CD1, we're still trying naturally but I think I'm able to deal AF coming now I know we are being investigated. I've been at Slimming World 6 weeks now and lost 1 stone and 2lbs so far, I'm throwing myself into getting healthy at the moment.
Hi to everyone who hasn't posted today x
06/06/2014 at 12:20
Enjayee - I had this exact conversation with my H last week; that it's different for women. He is able to forget about it, apart from those few days. But for us, we start on CD having our dreams shattered and have that constant remind each time we go to the loo; then we have a couple weeks of hopefullness; then we can't help but read into each twinge; and then the cycle starts again. Plus we have all those hormones throughout all of that!
Rod - Fingers crossed for you lovely. Enjoy the wedding!
Tonka - Fingers crossed for ov
Tayto - What a bizarre cycle! Hope AF comes soon.
Dolly - Nice to see you. Really sorry it's CD1, but that weight loss is amazing! Congratulations!
Just realised that I hadn't said anything about me, but I don't really have anything to report as I'm not sure what CD I'm on and don't want to look it up!!!
06/06/2014 at 13:05
wow - busy on here today!
Enjayee. It's so hard balancing all of this between two people. I get really torn: do I try and explain how fully horrible it is (one book I read cited studies that found that difficulties in conceiving can be as difficult mentally to cope with as cancer) or is it better that at least one of us maintains an optimistic state about it all? Should I dragging him down? One thing I know is that beating yourself up about it doesn't make you feel any better about it. Be kind to yourself and rant here whenever you need x
Rod - hope the next week flies by
Hazel - ignorance is bliss :)
Tonka - hope that's ov for ya. keep dtd!!
Tayto - think the others are right and operation must have messed things about it. hope it sorts itself soon.
Dolly P - good luck for this cycle. Well done on the weight loss!! I started Slimming world 2 weeks ago - 5 lbs off. The plan is great isn't it?
AFM - cd15 and another high on the monitor. Didn't realise phone wasn't charging last night so missed my temp this morning. Going to Paris on Sunday for a week for work - getting very excited now! OH is coming with me (we work in the same place) so should be nice
06/06/2014 at 14:21
Dolly, thank you for your kind message. That is just so sweet of your H. I try to tell myself that our baby isn't ready to be made yet. If that is the case then they had better understand that their mother does not tolerate tardiness! Onto you: well done on your weight loss, that is incredible! Really nice to see you around here again. Best of luck for this cycle, my lovely xx
Hazel - It is so difficult for men to understand, I guess. But you have described it absolutely perfectly - it's something we have to go through every day. I am going to have to cope with it better next month as AF is due the day we go to Sardinia with my inlaws. I don't want to be sad on holiday so it'll be a case of plastering on a smile for a while!
Veecee . yup, I feel torn as well. I'm not very good at crying alone as I like to have the physical comfort from someone, even if it doesn't fix the problem. Get DTDing! And have fun in Paris, it's such a lovely city! I'm a massive fan of the Latin Quarter.
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