Well last month after only having 2 days of red spotting and only a tinge of brown on CD25 (af arrived day 28 - i was always between 26-28 days with 1 of pinky/red spotting before hand. The first few months i had brown yucky spotting from day 22/23 and i thought things were improving slowly or i at least hoped they were.....

Thought i might have hada chance thsi month - its been 6 months since my mmc and my due date is next month so im unlikely to be pregnant again by then which will make it even harder to deal with....its also a year on Monday (cant believe where its gone!) since i lost my mum! :cry:

Anyway CD23 today and the spotting is here again this time pinky but thats not an improvement if its back to being for 5 days as opposed to 2 or if its af starting in next few days then i may have a LP defect like i think....either way im not going to get pregnant anytime soon and i cant take much more of this each month! :cry:

good Luck to those of you still in it for this month....

Laura x

Hi Laura,

Sorry to hear you are still having weird cycles. Did you get your test results back from the Dr's? I'm getting my blood results back today and also having a scan today so I'm hoping I get the all clear. I'm also coming up to my due date this month and I have been pushing it to the back of my mind, but I'm sure it's going to be an upsetting time. I've planned to do lots of stuff around that time to try and take my mind off it.

I really do hope you feel better soon. It has been a tough year for you. x

No only got bloods taken 2 days ago and reults will take a week apparantly but i have been told without 3day bloods (which i didnt have) they are a waste of time anyway!

Good Luck for your scan....im looking at going private!

Lx

Hey Laura,
Sorry to hear your cycles are still messed up and that AF might be round the corner......I don't know what to say but can only hope she doesn't come but if she does at least you have had a few days warning to deal with the witch - as horrible as it is
Am really sorry you got some tough dates ahead - have you got anything planned for Monday and next month to keep you busy and remember your mum/angel by?
Sending you a big hug and to let you know am thinking of you xxxx
Got to keep the PMA our time will come - maybe if you go private they might be able to give you some more answers/help?!
xxx

Hey chick,

Thanks...how are things with you?

the spotting has been pinky/red mucousy and is there most times when i wipe its not as much as the brown so had it not been for the fact im only CD23/24 i would think it was a good sign....

I was full of plans yo BD every 2nd day this month but due to various reasons think we have only bd'd about 4 times all in and i wasnt think ing of when i was likely to be fertile...im still having that pain each month which makes me even more paranoid but i would be 10/11 DPO today if i did ovulate based on that....suppose i can only wait and see what the blood tests show as far as i am aware its only the proestrogene level they can check and that would show if i have ov or not so all i can do is wait and see what the results say, when my af decides to fully start and how heavy it is when if comes.....

I can now drink loads at that wedding on Sat night and not worry about 'just incase' but i had bought a pink dress to wear so im a bit stuck now grr!

the thing is i knew we would be out this month with the lack of Bding - i knew there was a chance as i dont know when or even if i am ovulating buti was prepared for af and have had other things to keep me occupied this month as alot been going on....i cant even get a sofa like 'normal' people can - after hassle with last order they picked it up and we got 'lucky' and found one we liked in stock elsewhere only for them to deliver a 3 seater instead of a reclyiner and its also broken and 2/3 wait for a pick up and replacement so think we are just going to cancel that 2 and will have no sofa until nearly christmas time but soz thats me off on a tangent!

Thing is i was prepared for af - i just wasnt prepared for the spotting i was really hoping it would stay away until sat/sun and then af would just arrive - they told me it can take 6 months and thats what i am at now....i just want a baby so much!

Im going out for lunch with my sister on Monday - just so she isnt sitting at home herself and i have taken the day off of work and then on Poppets due date which is a Saturday we are going to go away for the weekend....they would have been late i think cause i am late for everything lol but that was my due date based on lmp and i measured correct at an early scan and while they arent accurate all i can do is stick to 17th October but it will be so hard and i really hoped to be pregnant again espec as it was so easy thats whats making it seem all the more cruel now! My mum took 10 years to have me and then got a surprise from my sister 6 years later so im worried about that 2...

I have not stressed this month or SS due to lack of bding but i have felt sick since Monday and have even burped up bile a few times (tmi) and i have been very 'windy'' (again tmi sorry) i am starving all the time and i mean proper hungry in that my stomache rumbles not me being greedy and i have had 2 massive spots erupt on my face this week when normally i dont get any...i have crampy pains different from my af as well but i suppose i think all this every month dont i?

Hubby was all 'it might be an implantation bleed' last night....bless him i dont like him getting his hopes up when i know its not....theres admittedly not as much as there usually is with the brown but based on how random the spotting has been every other month that doesnt mean anything and i fully expect my af to be here by Sat unless the spotting is prolonged again but on the 'psoitive' side i suppose at least its not brown right? My hubby never gives up the BFP hope until im in full flow but you just know dont you cause i've had this every month and besides it would have to be an almost immaculate conception if it was a BFP...wishful thinking!

Anyway.......so sorry for rabbiting on as usual but as you will know by now once i start i cant stop and im so fed up with everything at the minute!

Laura xx

Hi Lauz, sorry your cycles seem to be still messed up, have you been back to the docs just to talk thing over? I really hope AF doesnt show up and that it was just implantation...the rollercoaster seems never ending Also just wanted to say I hope it goes ok on Monday, sending hugs your way love Luc xxx

Thanks ladies....

Well i had day 21 bloods done and apparantly despite the doctor saying these are 'normal' the ladies on ltttc have informed me that without day 3 bloods then the lh and fsh hormones are not accurate as they have to be compared apparantly and as it was af on Sat i am now CD4 today and as i couldnt go to the doctors yesterday it will be October before i can have my day 3 and day 21 bloods to get a more accurate picture and that will take me up to my due date! :cry:

I have read lots of conflicting advice and its so confusing as i have also read that you dont need day 3 bloods if your day 21 bloods look alright as the hormones should settle back down.

anyway my LH was 4.1 and my FSH was 3.1 and got no idea if thats good or not but as i said prob inaccurate anyway....

my oestrogene i think was 423 and my proestrogene which should be 7DPO or what you think is then which i did think was right but its meant 2 be 7 days before af and mine was only 4 days before af was 24.3 and i have read conflicting advice saying above 20 indicates ovulation and others saying 30 - im hoping its a good sign as i think the levels fall again the closer you get to af so maybe i did ov!

I had that one streak of pink last wed and then 2 days of spotting but least it was all pink and no brown which im hoping is now away and im also hoping its just things taking time to settle as thats been 6 months which i was told it could take....i used to have 1 day of spotting before af arrived and maybe my normal is going to be 2 days,,,,,my only worry is that spotting was day 24, 25 and af on day 26 so im still worried about a LP defect! :cry: its all so confusing...

I am going into month 7 and my 5th trying although to be fair last month as i said we hardly bd'd for various reasons so while i expected af to get me i just didnt want it to be abnormal again!

All i can do is hope for a better result this month and a BFP to greet me on what should be my due date as its going to be hard enough....my hubby is also now concerned its him and the worry we both have is how soon we managed it last time and what if that was a fluke?

i had no luck with ov tests the one month i tried and i hope that was down to me missing the surge rather than that i didnt ovulate but im going to give them a try this month....i dont care at what cost and we are deffo going to bd every 2nd day starting from tonight now that af is away and try and relax a bit even though its hard...

I have also just ordered a CBFM which will be here in time for next cycle though with any luck i wont need to use it! My hubby is now becomming paranoid that its him....

i have found a fertility clinic in Glasgow which i am going to phone tomorrow as they do a test package including sperm analysis and scans for me and bloods (which i think may be more accurate and give us a bigger picture and hopefully show that everything is ok) its only ??220 for the full package so going to phone tomorrow and see what like wait is and if you can self refer etc which i assume you can if you are paying?

Anyway thats about it really....my af is almost away so i had the 2 days of spotting, then 2 heavy flow days, 1 medium flow day and today is almost end of it but usually before i became pregnant i was 1 day spotting, 2 or 3 heavy and then 1 day or so medium before it went away so its the most like a 'normal' period so far so i suppose all i can is wait and keep hoping....

I have said many times im takina break from here only to come back on and rant like this as you ladies are all so lovely but i think i am deffo going to take a break and maybe try and trick myself into thinking that i dont actually want to be pregnany right now in the attempt tha reverse psychology may work and stop me stressing....but i doubt it!

anyway ta for listening as always.....

Laura xx