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10/05/2012 at 13:21
Hi guys, I signed up to this website after googling and picking up on some of the previous threads. You guys support each other really well, I'd like that too.
I had a MC in March 22nd, I was 11 weeks pregnant.
I was really fortunet, as we fell pregnant in the first month trying. I took the MC really hard and it was very unexpected. Its was just so hard not to get excited, so as many other girls will know I was devastated when i lost my angel.
Everyday I know im becoming stronger but its so hard because I still want to talk about it. I dont know its just I dont want it to be like it never happened. I know its hard for others and I completely understand no one wants to upset me.
Anyways.. we are now ttc again. I had my 1st period on the 26th April. I have been counting my days and tonight and tomorrow could be our last chances. We have been having sex regularly I dont want to leave it down to timing it right with not being sure of my ovulation pattern..
If Im completely honest i feel like its not going to happen. Part of me thinks oooh maybe... but another part of me shuts those thoughts away. Trying not to get my hopes up. I hear your meant to be quite fertile after having a mc.
Im choked with the cold as well and feel my body wont be strong enough to do this. The silly thing is I know its only our first month of trying but i feel like im racing with time. As though being pregnant again will take away all this sadness i feel.
I want it so badly.
Hoping someone might have some positive reinforcement for me lol. Id like to hear from others who are experiencing these mixed feelings.
10/05/2012 at 13:38
hi so sorry you found your self here evey one is so nice on here i had my 2nd mc last november i have a little boy how is 15 months and we would love to give him a little brother or sister. it is true tnhat your more fertile after a mc .
i think we all understand how your feeling as the monthes go by i think will it ever happen again . hope you get that bfp soon.xxx
10/05/2012 at 13:53
Thanks for your reply Jay79.
I also have a son who will be 6 on saturday. I love him so much, he has been such a stregth for me. I should feel so lucky that I am blessed with a son but something still feels missing. Id love to give him a sibling, I use to worry about the age gap but i dont feel it bothers me now. Id just love to carry a healthy baby.
Hoping we both get the BFP.
12/05/2012 at 09:49
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It breaks my heart when i read others feel the pain i went through. I know it doesnt help but i think it helped knowing others knew how i felt. I hope you will find peace knowing your angels are safe watching down on you. It took me so long to accept what had happened and I still struggle to say the words 'I had a miscarriage'.
I watched a video on youtube describing 'what makes a mother' I belive the words are right, all that love you have in your heart for your angels makes you the best mommy.
Again I am so sorry for your loss Tracy, i hope you get the BFP you deserve. I know it wont happen tomorrow or the next day, and the pain from missing being pregnant cannot be filled until then. You have to stay positive. I understand now Im not racing with time or anyone, Im not competing with all my friends who are pregnant, it will happen to me when its right to happen.
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