I don't know what the hell is going on with me today.

Hubby left for work this morning and I've done nothing but cry all morning :cry:

It's so silly because I'm only 7DPO but already I've given up hope for this month....why?? I am so stupid some times. I have no reason to think EITHER WAY!

I went upstairs this morning and got out my special box where I kept some special momentos from my 2 babies. From the first one I have my 2 pos pregnancy tests, a pregnancy journal that I was keeping and a little babygro that me and hubby bought on honeymoon. And from my 2nd one I only have a faint pos test. I just held these things and cried so hard :cry:

I didn't even feel particularly sad yesterday or when I woke up, but suddenly it all came flooding out.

Sorry, I just need to talk to people I know will understand.

~ NN xx

Oh NN - I am sorry hun. I have random cries aswell hunny. Its so natural to feel this way. Just let it all out hunny. I actually cry everyday at night , in the bath tub, when I am feeling really sorry for myself xx

We do all understand, and I think we just all want the same things out of life - i have a baby and be happy!

Sending you all my love hunny, dont get yourself down.....just think you cld have abfp soon - pma my darling xxx

natty nik - i'm so sorry that you're having a rough time. i know exactly how you feel. i often cry in the car on my way to work. not sure why only then but think it's because i'm alone and start thinking about things. it's so hard but one day (hopefully soon!) you'll have a sticky one too. i'm lacking in pma too and although desperately want a baby, not sure if i could ever go through this again and so am almost scared to babydance for fear of getting pg. even though it's what i want. so confused at the minute. aaaaaagh! hope you feel better soon hun. xxx

Natty Nik I am so sorry you have had a rough day I hope you and hubby had a big cuddle when he got home from work.

I haven't been on in a while as also been lacking in PMA.I would have had my 12 week scan yesterday and spent the whole day showing a brave face but inside I was crumbling.I took a pg test today and as wanted to check that all the HGC hormone was gone which is it,even though I knew it was going to be negative it still upset me and I had abit of a cry in the shower.

We are all going to have good and bad days but we are all here to support each other.

Love Sharmaine.xx

Awwwh honey, sometimes a good cry is just what we need.

As the others have said, i do it all the time, randomly. Werid things set me off, adverts, music, someone being kind, anything! (i am avoiding children in need tomorrow, going to make a donation and then watch sex in the city film instead!)

By the way, one of your previous posts got me thinking, ive booked myself a couple of counselling sessions, after sitting in my pj's and sobbing for a week last week, i decided i wanted to do something postive. strangely, just booking it has made me feel stronger, and feels like i have a place to rant and rave. I dont know how many i'll need, maybe a couple, maybe more, but it feels nice to be taking some control over it all.

You will have the baby you deserve, and you will make a brill mum, watch this space... i bet 2009 is our year!

Gem x

A bit of a cry is often a good thing. I have my bad days, I have a cry and a time of "why meing" and then pick myself up and get on with it. It is so hard at the best of times you are bound to have your bad days xxxx hope you are feeling better now x

Thank you ALL for making me feel 'normal' ! It's nice to know I'm not alone in having these crying episodes that feel so irrational. Considering what we've all been through/are going through they are not so irrational at all.

Kittyboo - thank you :\) Yes, am trying to keep my PMA up and remember that there is no reason why we shouldn't have done it this month!! Am feeling more positive today...especially after all that BFP dancing

Karen - thank you so, so much! You brought tears to my eyes (happy tears that somebody could say such kind things about me. Look who's being all sentimental now :lol: ) And I think your PMA has reached me - am feeling much better today! I don't think I should do any naked dancing in the garden either - one of our neighbours is a psychiatric nurse and he'd probably have me locked up in an instant!!

Lula-belle - thank you for your support. I am sorry you know how this all feels too. I understand the being scared part too. Am hoping you get a sticky BFP really soon :\)

Sharmaine - sorry you are feeling so low right now. I remember after my first mc when my 12 week scan date came around - it was awful and I was so sad. It didn't help that my MIL's response was 'you can't think like that' I felt like screaming 'I can bloody well think how I like, I've just lost a baby for f&*ks sake!'. Of course I just smiled politely instead ;\) I hope you are feeling better soon and thanks for your understanding.

Gem - thank you so much for your kind words. I really hope 2009 is the year for us all! :\) Good luck with the counselling - I really hope it helps you. I know for me, it was just so nice to have someone to talk to who wasn't emotionally involved and who wouldn't make stupid insensitive comments!

Socks - thank you for listening and being supportive. You hit the nail on the head - you have your down time and then you pick yourself up and get on with it. We have to don't we? All the ladies here and so amazingly strong and although I hate the heartache we've all been through I am proud to know such wonderful, positive women! :\)

Take care everyone, NN xx