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10/11/2014 at 16:19
It feels so strange to be writing this after so long, but it's time for me to accept that I'm no longer a TTCer. I never wrote a BFP post - you would think after waiting so long to finally see the word "pregnant" without the "not" in front of it I would have been all over it like a rash; I guess a part of me was struggling to believe it was really happening. However, the time has now come for me to move on. We had our early scan this morning and got to see our little bean, one perfectly sized bean with a perfect little heartbeat.
It has been such a long journey to get here - 46 natural cycles, 2 IVF cycles, over 3 years and 9 months. I've been on this bench since before there was a separate TTC board on MD. I've been here since before there was MD. I've been lucky to meet some truly wonderful women along the way; women I am now proud and honoured to call friends. I've seen such a lot of ladies come and go, and it's been hard sometimes to see the ladies I started TTC with all those years ago moving onto their second or even third babies. While I've been part of the MTTC or DTC threads, I've seen at least 3 rushes of BFPs and been left behind - it was amazing seeing these wonderful women who deserved their happy endings move on, but it was so tough being left behind. I wanted to be on the tri threads with my friends. I wanted to be talking about nursery furniture, maternity clothes, baby names... but instead I was still stuck waiting for my miracle.
Finally, my miracle is here and it's happening. At last I've been able to give my mum the news I've longed to give her since we lost my dad. My best friend is absolutely over the moon, and being able to tell her today on her son's first birthday feels very special. When we started out on this road, I wouldn't have chosen the route we've been forced to take, but I am taking the positives from this whole experience and I hope that those of you still waiting for your miracle will keep the faith that you will get there. I've still got a long way to go, but it feels amazing (if still a little surreal) to finally be on the next part of the journey. I am so thankful for all the support and friendship I've received from fellow TTCers, I don't think I would have made it through without all of you - so thank you all from the bottom of my heart, and I hope with everything I have that, for those still waiting, your BFPs are not too far away.
Much love to you all - and while I don't "belong" here any more, I'll still be lurking!
10/11/2014 at 16:27
I am so so thrilled to see this post! Hugest of congratulations to you ST ..I know what a journey you've been on and am so so wasted you're getting your miracle baby and happy ending . Wishing you all the best for the future as a little family, hope you have a smooth 7 months from here xx
10/11/2014 at 16:28
Such an amazing post! Congratulations ST :) xx
10/11/2014 at 16:29
I clearly meant elated....but I shall toast your news of course ;-) what a muppet I am!!
10/11/2014 at 16:31
10/11/2014 at 16:35
Very happy for you ST. A lovely post x
10/11/2014 at 16:44
Best. Post. EVER!!! You've got me crying with happy tears! So pleased for you both xxx
10/11/2014 at 17:57
Another one in tears. What a beautiful post... to match the best news ever, ever, ever. Am so very happy for you ST - you have been through so much, I would so have collasped in a heap long before now. It must have been unbelievably hard to wait so long and keep picking yourself up again and again, and so difficult when Mrs B, Smarties and I were all pregnant at the same time... let alone when the little babies actually came along. You have done amazingly and I for one am so delighted that justice has been served in the form of one perfect little sparkly bean!!!
Wishing you a lovely 8 months and a lovely future with your little family. Biggest hugs xxxx
10/11/2014 at 19:34
Awww, ST, what a wonderful, beautiful, emotional post. I too am in tears and am just so delighted that you have finally been able to do this post. I am so very, very happy for you and Mr ST xxx
10/11/2014 at 20:08
This post has made me teary ST! I can't imagine what a long, hard and emotional journey you have been on to get where you are today. I am so so happy that you got to see your little bean at long last! Congratulations again to you and Mr ST X
10/11/2014 at 20:24
ST I know we haven't 'known' each other for long but after your journey you and mr ST more than deserve this!
Here's to an uneventful next few months x
10/11/2014 at 21:25
Wonderful news! So pleased for you, many congratulations xx
10/11/2014 at 21:52
Such a beautiful post. Congratulations again ST! Xx
11/11/2014 at 12:11
Thank you all so much, you ladies rock. Your kind words mean so much to me.
Coco - that did make me laugh! If you wish to get wasted on my behalf you have my blessing :)
Lamby - from this day forth my bean shall be called Sparkly Bean, I like that a lot!
11/11/2014 at 14:59
This is just perfect news ST. Wishing you an uneventful 7 months. xx
11/11/2014 at 15:16
Such a lovely post, huge congratulations to you xxx
11/11/2014 at 21:04
This is a lovely post to read ST, I'm so pleased that you are my tri buddy! xx
12/11/2014 at 10:31
Amazing news St I'm so happy for you. Lovely post, thank you also for all the support you have given us as well and of course for all the Paris tips xxx
13/11/2014 at 17:44
So happy for you ST :) xxx
15/11/2014 at 17:26
Such a beautiful post ST! So wonderful to read this & it's been lovely getting to know you. Wishing you an uneventful 7 months and I look forward to seeing your BA xx
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