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19/06/2013 at 15:20
Hi... whoever is out there... I guess today i just need support and encouragement and I don't know where else o can go. I have always wanted children, but it takes two and my husband wasn't ready for the longest time. As soon as he was, I was diagnosed with Endo, it was a huge shock. I had no idea, no bad periods, i only went in for a check up and was told, no way you are getting pregnant with that in there. So, we had to wait 4 month for an operation, I lost one ovary and a little of the 2nd, but told my chances of pregnancy were still high. Roll on 3 months and i get my first sick to stomach feeling and hey presto 2 lines... 4 days later...period cue Chemical no.1. Next cycle, to fat strong lines, had ultra sound and saw the sac, lost it at 6weeks 5 days. Then last month, another Chemical pregnancy. I am so low today, and in so much emotional pain it unbearable. It's not just the loss of potential babies, although that really hurts, it's the failure of fulfiling my dreams. I wanted a big family, it's all i have ever seen for myself, and i am getting older (31 this year) with a potential health problem that is not going away and an ovary that has been operated on. I am so low on hope i can hardly function, I don't know how to come to terms with this. It feels like even if i do get pregnant, it will never be with the same joy as others have, there is so much sadness attached now. To top it all off we are living in another country so i can't work, and i am surrounded by young mums and people trying and getting pregnant all over. I have 1 friend who has no children and doesn't want them. There is no-one who understands this pain, the few i have confiding in are lovely but it has never happened to them, they get pregnant so easily. I am so so low right now
19/06/2013 at 15:50
I am so sorry startingout! Please don't give up hope. I haven't gone through anything that you've gone through, but I just wanted to say that we are here for you, and will help you in any way we can. Just talking to us might help, and there might be others who have been in the same place and be able to offer you advice.
I know this wasn't very helpful, but I wanted you to know that you've come to the right place
19/06/2013 at 15:57
Thank you so much... just such a tough day and i feel like i have been through so much, it's one of those days where i scared of what next! I really appreciate your kind words... urgh now i am crying again...
19/06/2013 at 18:53
Hello startingout, like MrsYorkmumof1 said, you aren't alone, I know it feels very isolating at times and you have been through so much, my heart goes out to you, I haven't been on here for very long and wish I had found these lovely ladies when I was going through 2 mmc's in the last 8 monts, it is soul destroying but every day it does get a little easier to cope with, and I know it might be small consolation now but you now know that you can get pregnant and 31 is young , please don't lose hope , we're here to talk whenever you need x x
19/06/2013 at 20:12
Aww sorry I can't offer advice as I haven't been through this but I'm sending you HUGE hugs xxx thinking of you xxx
20/06/2013 at 07:53
Thank you evemum21 and Lou4966. A new day today, will try to be more positive, starting with a health kick I am just on the verge of being 'overweight' (with the miscarriage pregnancy i suddenly gained about 7llb) so have decided to try and get out for more exercise and loose a bit. It's something else to focus on. Thank you so much for your encouragement! xx
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