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19/02/2015 at 07:53
Morning again ladies. I'm working from home this morning as I have to get two moles cut out in just under two hours, am bricking it, although I know it's a minor procedure.
Got a better night's sleep last night and wore my eye mask so if I did wake up during the night I wasn't tempted to look at my phone but I have woken up in a completely foul mood. It's definitely hormonal and I'm not cramping anymore plus my boobs are getting sore so I think AF is definitely on her way. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm not out until I'm out but if I'm honest my hope is fading. In two weeks it would have been 18 months since we started trying and we still don't have a baby. I feel angry and very very sad, but I know that the PMS is playing a part in that.
Non TTC wise I am so upset with work. Again, the hormones have a part to play but still. A new girl joined the US office recently. She's very experienced and very competent which is of course a good thing, but I'm upset because one of our copywriters - who I work with on a regular project - wrote to her about a test we have spoken about and he asked her directly about how to do it, instead of me. I'm really hurt by this as it's completely undermined me. I'm not the sort to confront but I want people to know that this is not ok - I've been in this job for 18 months and have been lumped with doing a lot of stuff which I have absolutely zero experience with and have had to learn by myself, but this test is something I do have MASSES of experience in and I'm still undermined. The email was a load of crap as well - "I've been asking a number of people about email subject lines but can't get a straight answer out of anyone". I am nothing BUT straight answers when it comes to that - the reason he didn't get a straight answer from me is because he never asked me the question. Again, I'm finding the hormones very difficult to battle against this morning particularly when I have my mother and sister descending on the city soon. Cannot wait until this week is over, the hormones are so bad that I'm not looking forward to anything at the moment even though we have stuff lined up. Just want to stay at home and cry, I really don't want to go in but I have a leaving present for someone with me today so I can't really not go in.
Sorry for the downbeat post, the PMS hasn't hit me like this for a while - guess it's the combination of stuff going on.
19/02/2015 at 09:30
Enjayee - You are dealing with so much, this fertility journey is enough on it's own but you've got the added pressures of work life and home life and I can't imagine how difficult it all must feel for you. I don't know if there's anything I can say that would make you feel better but I'll try - I think you need to break this all down and think about one thing at a time, screw work for the time being, don't let these things grind you down, I know it's easier said than done but just for the moment concentrate on trying to remain as stress free as you can. You are not due to test for another week, and all these symptoms you are feeling could be a good thing, you know how similar both sets of symptoms are so don't rule it out and try to stay positive. I also know how much you are dreading your Mum and Sister coming, but it could be worse, they could be staying with you! So you will have an escape route at least. I'm thinking of you lots xx
19/02/2015 at 09:57
Enjayee - As CL said remember these symptoms could also be pregnancy so try not to lose hope. I wish there was something else I could say to help you.
Hi CL I hope you're doing ok xxx
Where is everyone else?
AFM - I'm also not feeling the love today, spotting started so that's cycle number I've lost count over :-(
19/02/2015 at 10:49
Hey LuLu - I'm doing good thank you. I'm so sorry to hear you've started spotting :( What's the plan for you going forward? - I'm out the loop a little, I remember you saying you were going to have a few more months trying naturally before intervention is this still the case? xx
19/02/2015 at 11:30
Hi Claire, yes I think we are going to try one more cycle then go to our nhs doc to see if we can get a refferal for treatment, if not we will get the ball rolling privately. Glad to hear you are doing well xx
19/02/2015 at 14:31
Enjayee, I'm with Claire_lou on this one. Break it all down and let one thing in your head at a time. You won't be doing yourself any favours by letting the stress take over (easier said than done I know, believe me) The hormones, the bloating and boob ache could well be pregnancy. Don't lose hope just yet. You have a few more days to go before testing so just hold on a little longer. As for work, its frustrating I know but try to let it go, just this time. You have much more important things to think about lovely. xx
Lulu, sorry to hear its not been your month this month.
AFM: CD20 and nothing going on here. No OV today like i hoped would happen. Got my fingers crossed for an OV this month though.
19/02/2015 at 14:49
Haven't been on the daily threads in a while, hello all!
Enjayee - it's bound to be a really difficult time dealing with personal, work and family issues, it's no wonder you're struggling. Don't lose hope though - the hormones could very easily be because of pregnancy. Hugs x
Hi CL, hope things are good with you!
Lulu - really sorry you're out this month.
Irrelephant- hope ov hurries up for you.
AFM - I'm (I think) 3DPO on my 2nd Clomid cycle but it hasn't been confirmed by FF. Not as confident as last time that I've actually ovulated as my temps have been all over the place because I wasn't well, not sure if that affected things. Got a 9DPO progesterone blood test next week so I'll have to wait and see.
19/02/2015 at 17:58
Evening ladies and hello to those who've not been around for a few days!
Enjayee - I hope that you got on ok with your mole removal and that it doesn't hurt too much. I'm glad that you slept better - I do exactly the same thing with my phone in the night if you mean looking at the time? I can't help it - I can't relax and go back to sleep if I don't know what time it is. Sorry that things are shitty at work again. Did anything happen to those two bullies in your office or are they still around? I hope that you managed to face the office this afternoon. Maybe the copywriter thought that you were too busy to be able to do the test? Either way it doesn't help when you are feeling hormonal. Please don't rule yourself out this month yet. As everyone else says, the symptoms of AF and pregnancy are so similar. I hope that you get a good night's sleep tonight and feel a bit better tomorrow X
CL - Hello! Lovely to see you X
Lulu - Sorry to hear that you've started spotting. I hope that you can get a referral asap to move on with the next steps.
Irrelephant - I hope that you ov soon! How are you tracking it?
Peanut - Sorry that you haven't been well. How many more cycles of clomid have you left? I hope that you don't need any of them though! Good luck for your blood test next week.
Hopeful - Just following up from the other day. Have you got your results now?
AFM - Nothing to report TTC wise. Non-TTC wise, I am very happy that it's nearly the weekend! I am off out tonight for dinner so I am looking forward to that.
Hello to anyone who follows!
19/02/2015 at 19:09
Enjoy your dinner Lottie! Where are you going?
I'm not sure, they said I can have up to 12 but I think it depends on whether I'm responding to the clomid properly, if it's not working properly they'll move on to IUI or IVF.
19/02/2015 at 19:25
Hello. Sorry to have been a bit AWOL. Work been manic. Phoned surgery levels appear normal. Will as always ask for print out for my records. Not sure what happens next. Not received any letter or anything from fertility centre. Think need to chase GP.
Will be back on again soon.
19/02/2015 at 19:28
Lottie, i'm tracking via monitoring CM only. I also record CD1, so I know my cycle lengths. I'm trying not to temp or chart, we're only on our first month of TTC.
19/02/2015 at 19:34
Evening girls x
Enjayee - Can't really say anything else that the others haven't said but sending you a massive hug and hope this is pregnancy hormones playing havoc not PMS.
CL - Nice to see you x
LuLu - Sorry to hear you think you are out, think positive until it does though. And if it does unfortunately turn up good luck with getting a referral x
Irrelephant - Hope OV turns up, what tracking method are you using?
Peanut - Hope you are responding to clomid so you don't need to go down any other route, good luck with the testa x
Lottie - Have a lovely meal out x
AFM - Nothing TTC wise with not knowing where I am in my cycle but guess I am around about 2ww due to EWCM. None TTC wise we found out our best man and his OH are pregnant today and due in July and I am absolutely devastated. And then of course feel worse for feeling so jealous, I just wanted to cry. Why can't it happen for us too?
19/02/2015 at 20:43
cycle day and CM observing only. Its usually pretty obvious if i am OVing.
19/02/2015 at 20:47
Mrs T sorry about feeling so down because of the PG announcement. Its upsetting I know, and i think its ok to be jealous. xx
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